Tuesday, December 4, 2012

'You're a mean one.. Mr Tea-Party Grinch...'

Sometimes absurdity is worthy of a laugh or two...

So we showed yesterday what House Majority leader John Boehner's counter-proposal was to President Obama concerning fiscal cliff negotiations...

In essence, the Republican sought to cut the Social Security inflation rate, raise minimum ages to receive Medicare, make the Bush tax cuts permanent including for the very affluent and as a tossed 'bone' stated they'd agree to $800 billion in tax increases over a 10 year period.

Can you guess which part of that proposal pissed off hard-core fiscal conservatives the most?
"Sen. Jim DeMint, a tea party favorite, ripped House Republican leaders for offering a budget framework that embraced new taxes, saying the GOP plan to raise $800 billion in new revenue would hurt the economy, kill jobs and not reduce the national debt by a penny..."  (Washington Times)

Well we agree with the last part of not reducing the national debt since $800B is puny, would be spread out over 10 years, and we showed yesterday that $80bil per year is only the equivalent of two months of Fed spending i.e QE3, which converts to public debt.

Senator DeMint's argument is as thus: "Everyone knows that when you take money out of the economy, it destroys jobs, and everyone knows that when you give politicians more money, they spend it. This is why Republicans must oppose tax increases and insist on real spending reductions that shrink the size of government and allow Americans to keep more of their hard-earned money." (Washington Times)

This of course is the fiscal conservative/tea party mantra...

And it is utter bullshit, pardon our French...
Let's put it this way-- if Corporate America absolutely Refused to create new jobs with livable wages and benefits over the last four years of this recession when there were zero tax increases upon them, why should anyone believe for a moment that by rejecting tax increases upon them now, it will motivate these companies to change their ways and start hiring?

They're not charitable, altruistic entities.. Corporations are cut-throat, uncaring, emotionless entities who's sole purpose is to appease the Shareholders and the possess no moral, ethical or civic obligation to anyone else.

And when it comes to paying corporate taxes, have gotten away with Murder!  How much in corporate taxes did General Electric pay last year?  Zero...  Yes-- Zero.  How much in corporate taxes did Goldman Sachs pay?  Yep.. Zero..

DeMint argues that politicians love spending money... They sure do.  And when Bush was in office and the Republicans controlled Congress, they spent like there was no tomorrow... Spent it on Defense...On Wars..  Two of them in fact.. Simultaneously...
Everyone spends money.. but here's the thing: For every wasteful expenditure or pork project snuck in by a slimy Congressman or Senator to benefit their locality (we doubt you're innocent on that Mr. DeMint), money is also spend on good purposes; helping people-- improving lives in more ways then we have time to go into here...

But let's not be too harsh on those tea-party people..

For those at the very top, they have more money than you and I could accrue in 10 lifetimes and since they'll never receive a penny of benefit from Social Security or Medicare, much less other safeguards such as welfare, unemployment compensation and food stamps, why would they ever seek to keep intact any program they could not benefit or profit from?

And for those who embrace the cause but economically are unexceptional; everyday people like us..  We take pity on the misinformed.  How deep in the rabbit hole of brainwashing does one have to be, to actively fight for policies that when put into practice will make their economic lives worse?   And the mind manipulators actually dare to use the guise of 'Patriotism', 'Liberty' and 'Don't Tread on Me' to suck in the gullible..

Really sad..
The world was much different in the early days of the formation of the United States.  Back then we really were a nation of rugged individuals and pioneers.  They could hunt, kill, cook, sew, build homes...   There was no Lowe's or local supermarket...

Today, we're all pampered babies by comparison.. Most can't survive 10 minutes without their fucking texting devices in their hand, tap-tapping away irrelevancies while intentionally ignoring every living, breathing soul in vicinity.

This tea party notion of shrinking government... just empty platitudes... Most could not survive a week without government being so directly involved in all aspects of our lives.  It may stink to think of it but its nonetheless true.  All it takes is a Hurricane Katrina or Sandy to impact their lives adversely and even the most staunch Individualist cries and begs for government to step in and save them; to feed and clothe and shelter them..  like infants to a parent.

We don't enjoy knocking the Republicans, mainly because in other areas of public policy, we find areas of agreement with them.  But we absolutely Abhor the tea-party movement and its hardcore fiscal conservative ideologies..   The policies are both heartless and short-sighted, and would be devastating to the US economy if ever allowed to be fully implemented.

Monday, December 3, 2012

In the News: Treating PTSD with Ecstasy: One Story



by Caleb Hellerman, CNN
December 3, 2012

(CNN) -- When Rachel Hope picked up the phone in 2005 to call Dr. Michael Mithoefer, she didn't have high hopes.

"I had very low expectations," said Hope, who suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder for years before investigating whether the drug Ecstasy might be able to free her from her torment. Her PTSD was traced to a period of sexual abuse as a child and a life-threatening car accident.

In the initial 45-minute conversation, Mithoefer determined that Hope didn't have other serious psychological problems. He agreed to fly her to South Carolina to take part in his study of the experimental therapy. There, she underwent more psychological testing and a physical exam. There were standard therapy sessions, so Mithoefer could understand Hope's past and her symptoms. Finally, she was ready.

Light streamed through the skylight as Hope lay back on a futon in Mithoefer's office, in the rear of a small bungalow.

On either side sat Mithoefer and his wife, Annie, a nurse.

Annie put in a CD and music started playing. As Hope placed a capsule on her tongue, they began to talk. Thirty minutes later, she began to feel deflated. Even though she had no experience with drugs, she knew: she'd been given a placebo.

Ecstasy as PTSD treatment?


True to their protocol, the Mithoefers continued the therapy, as if Hope were under the influence of MDMA. Said Hope, "We went through the process, but by the end, I'm like, 'I'm not different.'"

A week later, Mithoefer called back. He had permission to conduct MDMA sessions with test subjects who'd previously received the placebo. Would Hope like to fly back to South Carolina?


And so once again, Hope found herself on the futon, the light streaming, the music playing, the capsule on the tongue. This time, everything changed.

"It was like my whole brain was powered up like a Christmas tree, all at once," recalled Hope.
Listening to audiotapes, it isn't obvious what's happening. The conversation is fractured. But something was going on inside Hope's brain.

"Somehow, I became aware of the hardwiring decisions that my brain had made to explain why all these traumatic things happened to me, and what they meant to me about being a woman, a child living in the world, about sex, about violence," she said. "What the medicine did, it brought everything up for question."

Mithoefer said he lets patients drive the direction of the session. Typically, they alternate between talking and stretches of pure introspection. The trauma, he said, "always seems to come up."

"It's not that people just have a blissed-out experience and feel great about the world," he cautioned. "A lot of the time it's revisiting the trauma, and it's a painful, difficult experience. But the MDMA seems to make it possible for them to do it effectively."

Hope said it certainly worked for her. She estimates that 80% of her symptoms disappeared after that first MDMA-assisted session. "It allowed me to rewire my brain," she said. Another 10% of her symptoms went away over the next few weeks, she said.

According to results published last month in the Journal of Psychopharmacology, the effect was typical. Of 19 subjects in the study, more than two-thirds still showed significant improvement more than three years later -- what Mithoefer and colleagues describe as "meaningful sustained reductions" in their symptoms.

With PTSD, a common measure of severity is the so-called CAPS score, determined by answers on a detailed questionnaire. To be part of the study, patients needed a CAPS score above 50, which generally signifies moderate to severe symptoms. Hope rated a score of 86. At long-term followup, about three years after their final MDMA-aided session, only two people in the study had scores as high as 50. The CAPS score for Hope was 14.

One patient, who chose to stay anonymous, described a sense of new freedom: "I was always too frightened to look below the sadness. The MDMA and the support allowed me to pull off the controls, and I ... knew how and what and how fast or slow I needed, to see my pain."

"The question is whether this was just a flash in the plan, where people just feel good from taking a drug," said Mithoefer. "The answer to that turns out to be no, it really wasn't just a flash in the pan for most people."

For all the promise, however, 19 people is still a tiny study.


'Rebooting a computer'

Not surprisingly, there are skeptics. Dr. Edna Foa, who developed a widely used treatment for PTSD called prolonged exposure therapy, or PE, met with Mithoefer to review audiotapes of MDMA-assisted therapy. She walked away shaking her head.

"I was completely confused," Foa said. "They were all over the place. They didn't use evidence-based therapy, which would be CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy), PE or EMDR (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing). They were just kind of going with feeling. I don't know the rationale."

She was also jolted by the frequent hugs the Mithoefers gave patients at difficult points in the session. "It's very unusual," Foa chuckled. Foa said she never touches a patient "unless they ask for it. And then I hold their hand."

Mithoefer said the key feature of his approach is that it's "nondirective," in that what happens during the session is determined primarily by the individual's own process and needs. He said he often includes elements of other types of therapy -- including PE and CBT -- but that it depends on the patient's response.

Even those who see promise in MDMA-assisted treatment aren't sure how it works. "It's not well understood by any means," said Mithoefer. "We think it gives people this window of time in which they can process things without being overwhelmed by emotion, but also not being numbed up."

He said brain imaging studies, while crude, support the theory that MDMA alters hard-wired connections between conscious thought and emotional reactions -- or overreactions.

"We do know that MDMA decreases activity in the left amygdala, and increases it in the prefrontal cortex" -- brain areas associated with emotion and higher thinking, respectively, he said.

David Nichols, a professor of pharmacology at Purdue University, said no one really knows why MDMA, as well as drugs like LSD and psilocybin, have such a profound effect on the brain.

"I liken it to rebooting a computer," he said. "But when it comes to things that change the fundamental structure of personality and consciousness, and changes who you are, we don't really understand that."

Nichols warned against a simple explanation. "You could talk about neurotransmitters, but that's really superficial. (MDMA) releases serotonin, dopamine, norepinephrine. It activates other hormones. But what does that all mean?"

'Why do we need this MDMA?'

Uncertainty is easier to take if you think there's no other option, and Foa argued it's a misperception that existing treatments are ineffective.

A recent study by psychiatrists at the National Center for PTSD tracked 171 patients who received either PE or CBT therapy. After 10 years, fully 80% still enjoyed milder symptoms. However, about one in four of those treated could not be found for followup.

"With PE, you get about 40-50% (cured) of PTSD, and you get about 80% getting improvement," said Foa. "So we have good treatments, that have no side effects. The question is, why? Why do we need this MDMA?"

Foa also cites concerns about neurotoxicity, although a 2011 study by Harvard psychiatrist Dr. John Halpern found that occasional MDMA use produced no cognitive damage.

Dr. Julie Holland, a psychiatrist who is overseeing the safety of an MDMA study Mithoefer is now conducting on veterans, said most risk is eliminated by the controlled nature of the experience.

For casual Ecstasy users, said Holland, "The biggest risk is not knowing what they're taking." Apart from being illegal, the street drug is often contaminated with other substances. Holland added that, "The next big one (risk) is heatstroke, if you get out and dance for six hours."

"The third biggest risk is overhydration," she explained. People are taught to stay hydrated, but MDMA causes the body to retain water. Combined with the drug's disorienting effects, this can lead users to overdrink, to a condition known as hyponatremia, a dangerously low concentration of sodium in the blood. "This is the main reason MDMA users die," said Holland, "from drinking too much water."

In a controlled setting, said Holland, "You get an incrementally higher heart rate, higher blood pressure and body temperature, but there isn't real danger as long as you're moderately healthy."

'Real people are paying the price'

Additional studies using MDMA against PTSD either have been completed, are planned or are under way in Colorado, Canada, Spain, Switzerland, Israel, Australia and Great Britain.

Meanwhile, Mithoefer is conducting a study treating military veterans and firefighters; so far 11 people have enrolled and more than 280 have called to see if they might take part.

While the military and Department of Veterans Affairs have expanded services in recent years, they struggle to keep pace with the inflow of new patients. The number of active-duty military personnel seeking treatment for PTSD rose from 10,408 in 2002 to 281,468 last year, according to Cynthia Smith, a Department of Defense spokeswoman.

One reason MDMA seems tempting is the sense that existing treatments are not enough. "It's not like we don't have effective treatments for PTSD," said Dr. Boadie Dunlop, director of the Mood and Anxiety Disorders Program at Emory University. "But there are many people for whom these therapies don't work."

Retired Brig. Gen. Loree Sutton, who headed the DOD's Centers of Excellence for Psychological Health and Traumatic Brain Injury from 2007 to 2010, said she left the Army in part because she felt existing treatments often do more harm than good.

"We invested in conventional approaches towards research, but I also knew we had to go beyond that," said Sutton. "Real people are paying the price for our failure to harness knowledge."

The National Center for PTSD, a branch of the VA, says approved treatments include a type of antidepressant known as SSRIs (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors), along with EMDR, CBT and PE, developed by Foa. In some studies, more than three-quarters of those who complete PE therapy are "cured." But success can be hard to evaluate, in part because treatment is too emotionally painful for many patients to complete.

The DOD and VA also support a variety of research, much of it to try to fine-tune existing approaches. For example, Foa is leading a study offering more sessions in a shorter amount of time -- twice weekly -- to soldiers at Fort Hood, Texas. About 360 people are expected to enroll.

Neither the VA nor the military is part of clinical MDMA research, but Sutton said that before leaving the Army, she did call Rick Doblin to encourage his work. Doblin is the founder of MAPS, the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies, which wants to turn mind-altering drugs like Ecstasy into prescription medicine.

"With MDMA -- Ecstasy -- if rigorously designed studies show there's a benefit, better than existing therapies, then we should use it," Sutton said.

Doblin said he's working with the Defense Department to develop a protocol involving active-duty troops, and said he would gladly give up his status as the prime backer of MDMA research:
"If there are other people who have a better idea, or want to try it with cognitive behavioral therapy, or whatever -- if there are other people trying to fund MDMA research, we think that would be great." With a laugh, he added, "We could even provide them with free MDMA. We have a lot more than we need."

Encouraging signs

Hope no longer has flashbacks or night terrors, and she no longer jumps when the phone rings. After finishing with Mithoefer, she decided to abandon her quiet life on Maui and moved to Los Angeles.

In 2008 she felt strong enough to have a second child. "That's another part of the gift of MDMA," she said recently. "Before those sessions, I just couldn't get it together, to expand my family the way I wanted to."

Crowds no longer faze her. In fact, she spent two months this fall as a full-time climate-change protester, doing street theater in a polar bear hat in front of hostile crowds at presidential debates and similar events.

"It gets pretty intense," she said. "It's something I couldn't have done, before the treatment."

Grateful as she is for Mithoefer's study, she feels as strongly as ever about avoiding recreational drug use. "I have a very, very serious respect for that medicine. You really don't want anybody to do this without professional supervision. It could open portals, in a way that could really damage you."

Chatting in his office, where books about shamanism sit side by side with standard psychology texts, Mithoefer remained cautious.

"I think at this point, what we know is that MDMA can be administered safely to people with PTSD, to the right people in the right setting with the right screening. It shows very encouraging signs of being effective, you know, but the numbers are too small to say we can definitively prove that."

Cuttin' and Slashin' the Black-hat Baddie Way

~ "I wear black on the outside, cause that's how I feel on the inside"
'Unloveable' -- The Smiths

You gotta love them Congressional Republicans..

"House Republicans on Monday proposed a new 10-year, $2.2 trillion blueprint to President Barack Obama that calls for increasing the eligibility age for Medicare and lowering cost-of-living hikes for Social Security benefits."  (AP)

We were kidding of course...  Hard to love the black hearted.

But goodness how empassioned they are to want and need to cut and slash those Medicare and Social Security benefits... They call them 'entitlements'.   Sounds so condescending... Who do all those worker-bees think they are to be 'entitled' to anything?

Well, we would think if one worked 45-55 years in a system that took bi-weekly payroll tax stipends to be set aside for future benefits, that that person would be Entitled to some of it back, yes.
~ "I'll hurt those dern' common people if its the last thing I do!"

The problem as they see is that people are just living too dog-gone long, Darn it!  Why heck.. when Social Security was first introduced in the 1930s during the Great Depression, most people didn't live past their mid 60s.. Boy those were the days, ehh?

But now.. shoot.. everyone's living and living.. and we just gotsta raise that minimum Social Security age high enough to ensure a nice chunk of people can start dying off before they begin getting back what they paid n' paid into...

That's quite 'compassionate' of them Republicans...

Kinda get the feeling if some of them hardcore fiscal conservative Tea Bagger types could have it their way, eugenics would be part of the fiscal cliff discussions as well.

And we wonder-- how low can cost-of-living hikes go?  From 2009 to 2011 calendar years, there was Zero cost of increase in benefits...  We're sure the Congressional Republicans will figure a way to slice into that figure.  And lets not forget that numbers are manipulated so that the rise in cost of food is not considered as to whether or not there's inflation to adjust Soc Sec's increase to...
So its not like retirees are packing away the savings... And if they have any savings at all, it sure is hard to live and keep up on inflation on a savings interest rate of a tenth of one percent...

But the Republicans' plan was a counteroffer:

"The proposal from House Speaker John Boehner, R-Ohio, and other Republicans comes in response to Obama's offer last week to hike taxes by $1.6 trillion over the coming decade but largely exempt Medicare and Social Security from budget cuts. "  (AP)

Those tax hikes would be mostly affecting the very affluent; those who may not like to pay taxes but wouldn't feel any alteration to their lives (OK..perhaps one less trip to Aspen).  More importantly Medicare and Social Security wouldn't be touched... And in spite of any fear-mongering pronouncements, neither program is anywhere close in the near term to insolvency.

"The GOP plan also proposes to raise $800 billion in higher tax revenue over the decade but it would keep the Bush-era tax cuts — including those for wealthier earners targeted by Obama — in place for now."  (AP)
Sorta contradictory isn't it?  If you're going to preserve tax cuts for the wealthiest, who will be contributing to that $800 bill in additional revenue?  The middle class?  Aren't they the special class that both parties court to death every two year election cycle?

Guess Boehner means the working class.. the poor...  And how do you draw more blood from that stone?  You push for Value Added Taxes... National Sales Taxes... increase taxes per gallon on gasoline... Anything that everyday people need for basic survival, you hit them in the pocket or purse under the guise of it being 'equally' paid by all...

And $800bill in new taxes.. that does sound impressive... Oh.. Wait.. that's over 10 years which comes to $80bil/year... guess it isn't quite so impressive after all. BTW, how much is the Fed spending per month on its infinite QE3 manipulations?  Around $40 billion--- a month.

So.. let's see..  the Fed is going to spend $40 billion a month for as long as it wishes to artificially prop the stock market which comes to $480 billion/year and this will increase the public debt by that amount.. and the Republicans offer to raise taxes to cover a mere 2 months of that expenditure, which does not cover any other aspect of the yearly budget??

Pathetic!

Well at least we know which side of the fiscal cliff debate are wearing the black hats...

Cool Hand Luke: Boss Godfrey (Morgan Woodward)

"The man with no eyes (soul)."


Boss: "Sorry, Luke. I'm just doing my job. You gotta appreciate that."

Luke: "Nah -- calling it your job don't make it right, Boss."

Junior Wells "Messin' With The Kid" Montreux 1974




https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cWTieCjUhVw

Steve Martin On Goals (SNL Season 2 Episode 14)



Let's get smirked --- really smirked.



"Excuse me! I feel good tonight, because, uh.. well, I've finally got a goal in life, and that's.. that's what pleases me, is to be able to have a goal, and this is why I'm so happy, because -- it's important -- the thing you have to learn, in having a goal, is not to set an impossible goal, something too high you can never reach. You gotta have a series of smaller goals, that you can accomplish, and slowly work your way up. And this is what I have done. That's why I'm so happy. My goal: right now, I want to be the all-being master of time, space and dimension. Then, I want to go to Europe ---- I think."

How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me — Book Review

Here's a first-rate book review from the Finance for a Freelance Life Blog that I have shamelessly swiped for my own blog.

In my group therapy sessions for my OCD/anxiety issues, I have been in groups with clinically depressed and BiPolar folks and this is such a dire, recurring situation for them, I thought I'd share it here on the Smirk blog. I bought this heavy-topic book  -- for the usual $3 (in the clearance section) -- in the hopes of helping my friends with a few suggestions culled from Susan Rose Blauner's book. The holiday season can be especially trying for the depressed.


Here then is the book review written by mrsmicah, taken from

http://financefreelancelife.com/2008/06/13/how-i-stayed-alive-when-my-brain-was-trying-to-kill-me-book-review/

When I saw How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me sitting on a shelf in my library, I couldn’t help grabbing it. The title is a work of pure genius. In an instant, I was identifying with the author (Susan Rose Blauner) and wanting to know what worked for her.
She subtitles it “One Person’s Guide to Suicide Prevention.” Her hope, expressed in the introduction, is that when depressed people or those with suicidal thoughts read her book, they’ll find something useful to keep them going. The book, therefore, is specially focused on NOT committing suicide. But I think it’s helpful for those dealing with depression even if they’re not suicidal.

If you’re not depressed and are thinking about not finishing this, skip to the “Helping a Suicidal Thinker” section.

So You Think You Want to Die?

She explains up front that she’s basing this book on a set of beliefs about suicide and suicidal thinking:
  1. Most suicidal thinkers don’t want to die; they just want their feelings to change or go away [emphasis mine. and when you think they won't go another way, you figure the death should end it, right?]
  2. Every single feeling we experience eventually does change — with or without any help from us. They never stay the same or at the same intensity.
  3. Feelings and thoughts come from electrochemical impulses in the brain. [this is important for understanding that something might be physiologically wrong but fixable.]
  4. It is possible to outthink the brain, actively change feelings and eventually eliminate suicidal thoughts.
  5. The reality of suicide is far different from the fantasy. Most suicidal thinkers romanticize their death by suicide, failing to realize that any suicidal gesture or attempt can result in permanent brain, kidney, or liver damage, loss of limbs, blindness…or even death.
Blauner believes that when talking about suicide and our thoughts and feelings we should be very careful to use our words to shape our reality. She dislikes the word “suicidal” when applied to a person, because she believes the idea of a suicidal state is harder to break out of than her alternative. She suggests using the phrases “having suicidal thoughts” or “thoughts of suicide” instead. That reminds us that these are thoughts…they’re something we can work to overcome.

As someone who made three suicidal gestures, she also explains that when she came to the point she really didn’t want to die. She wanted things to be different, she wanted these things to go away, but after she’d taken the pills always ended up calling for help…even if she thought this time she’d go through with it.

Despite having made…I guess “gestures” is the proper word for them…I’ve found that the two times in my life I thought I was really going to die (one involving real choking…the kind where you don’t make a sound…and one involving a head-on car crash that I narrowly avoided) I fought like hell/drove like hell. I was angry and I wasn’t going to let this happen.

Tricks of the Depression-Defeating Trade

Blauner scatters these throughout How I Stayed Alive as tricks she’s learned through her time in therapy. Many are related to cognitive behavioral therapy, which I’ve found quite helpful. Others involve getting help…which is surprisingly hard to do when you’re depressed.
For example, Trick #5 is Feelings vs. Facts. The short version is that when you’re starting to feel things, you ask whether they’re in line with the facts of the situation.
To use a real-life example, sometimes I feel like my life isn’t worth living. If I remember to do it, this method helps me come up with some answers to that feeling. I might point out that while I can’t tell if my life is worth living it’s too early to know. Or that even if I can’t come up with a reason to live it overall, there’s nothing to say it’s not worth living today. Or that if I believe human life is valuable that extends to me as well. Or just that I have something exciting coming up in a few days or weeks.

That particular trick works best if the answers come from within you, not from other people. They can help you come up with answers, but if someone tells me my life is worth living it doesn’t mean nearly as much as coming to that conclusion myself.

Other “tricks” include Healthy Diversions, Service — Helping Others, Movement and Exercise, and practical things like Asking for Help, Therapy, and Crisis Planning.

Suicidal Crisis Plans

Blauner strongly encourages those with frequent suicidal thoughts to come up with a just-in-case crisis plan. The idea is that when you’re getting to the point of killing yourself, you can call or visit the people on this plan (there are a lot of backup people in case your top picks aren’t home) to help you defuse the situation and possibly get yourself help.

After the top people you’ve chosen (and talked with about this beforehand so they’re more prepared), you add your therapist (if you’re seeing one), suicide hotlines, local hospitals.

During a particularly rough year, the author’s plan included getting herself hospitalized if it came to that. Yours may not need to, but she explained to all the people on the plan that this was what she wanted and collected local hospital numbers.

Then, there’s the smaller crisis plan. When you’re having some mildly suicidal feelings which you’re afraid might snowflake and snowball out of control, you can turn to your smaller crisis plan. It includes simple things like stopping and breathing, using the tricks of the trade (above) that you find most helpful, trying some of your favorite activities, etc.

At the bottom of the smaller crisis, include a few numbers for the people on your suicide plan. If your plan doesn’t work, they’re still there for you to talk to them. Even suicide hotlines are willing to work with you if you’re “only” having thoughts. Don’t be afraid to bother them.

Helping the Suicidal Thinker

Almost another book in itself, this section of How I Stayed Alive is meant for those who are, well, helping people with suicidal thoughts.

It covers which responses are helpful and which aren’t, why people can’t “just get over” their suicidal thoughts, and what you can offer the depressed people in your life. She includes the warning signs and risk factors which might lead you to encourage someone to get help.

She encourages families to talk, to listen well, to respect boundaries and privacy (without being sworn to a secrecy that might keep you from helping the suicidal person). She explains what is an isn’t helpful when talking to someone depressed.

This section is something which I’d like to see more people read. I’m fortunate enough to have a psychologist for a MIL and a husband who was raised by one. But a number of my friends have been told by their families “Don’t feel this way” or “You should try harder.” Not helpful.

To Buy or Not to Buy?

I think that How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me is a must-read. Whether you’re mildly depressed, very depressed, or not depressed at all, depression will play a role somewhere in your life. It may be a family member, a friend, a coworker, a spouse, a child.
This book shows you how (some) depression works, the impact it has on a person’s life, the nature of their thoughts.

As someone dealing with lighter and heavier depression, I found it enormously helpful. I’ve never seen someone take on suicide that well before. It wasn’t just her story but it engaged her story. It helps to know that the author has been there. And that she doesn’t think suicidal thoughts are wrong, they’re just something we have to learn to overcome.

While I’d heard many of the “tricks of the trade” before, she presented them inspirationally. She made me want to do them. I also knew I wouldn’t be alone in doing them because she does them too.

As for whether it’s a must-buy, I always suggest hitting up the library first. Then you can decide if it’s good for a one-time read or something you should have around. I’m still deliberating (I do own one really helpful book, so I’m not sure if I need How I Stayed Alive around at all times, even though it takes on suicide more than the other).

If You’re Having a Crisis Right Now

Like all books about depression and working through depression, this is no substitute for actual therapy and possibly medication.

If you’re having a crisis right now and don’t have a therapist (calling them when you’re in crisis shouldn’t bother them, that’s what they’re there for) or friend/family member you can talk to, here are some numbers for getting help:

By phone in the US: 1-800-784-2433 (1-800-SUICIDE) & 1-800-273-8255 (1-800-273-TALK).

By phone in the UK: 08457 90 90 90 (Samaritans)

By phone in the Republic of Ireland: 1850 60 90 90 (Samaritans)

By phone in Canada: 1-877-822-0140 (some sites suggest this is for adults 18 and over) 1-888-821-3760 (some sites suggest this is for youth 17 and under)

Getting help by e-mail: jo@samaritans.org (There will be some delay time because each e-mail is answered by a person. The e-mails are anonymous/confidential, their system will remove your details.)

Honestly, the only way I’ve been able to reach out to one of these groups is via e-mail. When I need help, I tend to feel as though I’m going to become an unwelcome burden. Hence talking to someone on the phone is burdening them. With e-mail, I can tell myself that they’re choosing to reply.